Just Accept and Be Thankful for Everything

Sometimes, the world can't go as what we want. It makes us dissapointed, angry, or sad. Yeah, we are just a human being that have a feeling and have a freedom to express them. Nothing is wrong :) But, we can't keep going on with the sadness. We have a choice to be happy, so why you choose the bad one? Try to think wisely :)

I have experienced this. I forced anything to do as what I want. The result? It just made me hurt. The world can't adapt to us, but we can. We can change the situation. First of all, learn to accept them. It's hard, maybe will take days, weeks, sometimes month. However, we should try. Just accept. When you accept, you can see the positive side. Then, you will be thankful of it. 

I want to tell you the key: be thankful. Thankfulness means you can accept all, even though it's bad. When you can do this, you will feel that you have had all what you want. You'll feel enough. When you concetrate on what you don't have, you will feel less and less. Don't waste your time to think about the bad side of the world, just be positive thinking. You have had everything and you will never be inadequate. 

Now, the world isn't in your hands, but one day, you will see how the world is easy to take over. God bless you :)

Phenomenon Program Television in Indonesia

I don't understand with televition station in Indonesia. Every show, reality, or whatever it is called have their own "joget". Do you understand? dancing! Like every scene, they dance all the time with the same dancing and song. I am as a spectator, feel so bored with all the dance. Okay, at first I can admit it. The show is fun, can entertain me. But, I think, it isn't wise if they have to dismissed the program which is useful that can inspire people. 

You know, like every station TV is priority the dancing. I just feel pity to Indonesian people. Where is the beneficial program? If every program just teaches how to dance, where the program that can teach people how to thankful or survive about life?

I am so thankful because my childhood was full of children's program. I don't know sure when, but it missed. All stations have drama that takes time so long and so cruel. It affects the children so much. You know, when I was child, I played and acted as a child, but the children nowadays have known about love. Amazing! They try to attract their "gebetan". OMG. So pity. 

I think, station televisions have to think carefully about program they made. It is not just about how entertain people, but your station television can inspire people from your show. I think it is much better. I hope, in the future, all things can go much better.

Do we worth for the second chance?

Chance? Do you believe that it will come for the twice or third time? I just believe, when you still have a chance, just do the best. I see some persons that lose their chance because they don't realize that it is the best time for them to show what they have. I never say that I'm the perfect person that use my chance well. I've ever lost it because that time I was so stupid.

I can't understand some people that request chance for more and more. However they have maybe got twice. I thought, before we ask a chance, just thinking of ourself first. Have we truly realized our mistake in the first or second chance? It is just nonsense when we ask a chance but we don't change. The chance will be useless and we will do the same mistake. 

We have to make ourself worthed before asking the second chance. Learn from the first mistake. Not all people can give second chance easily. People will be so careful to give it because they don't want to be dissapointed twice. Just be a worthed person to the second chance. People do mistake, learn, and be better!

Family is a God's Idea

I used to have a complete family, but it just happened until I was three years old. Then my mother and I moved to Tangerang and lived with my grandpa and grandma. As a child I didn't understand why it happened and I never asked my mom about my dad. I felt happy with all I have that time, even though never keeping in touch with my dad.

Now, I just live with my grandpa. My mother and grandma have gone first, their home in heaven have finished. I never know why this should happen. I am not angry, I realized I can't find the answer now. I lose father's figure since I was child, but it doesn't matter to me (I think). Thing that I've never thought to happen, I also have to lose mother's figure. 

I remembered that day. I slept at ICU room, waited for mom who suffered. Suddenly she could not breathe and the breath lost forever. As the only that I have, I never thought that I had to through my life without her. It was so sad. Blue and gloomy. 

No matter what happens, He loves so much! I cry sometimes if I miss her, but I never live in sorrow or sadness. Today, when I opened my IG, I found a picture, daily quote from Hillsong. It is written "Family is a God's Idea". It made me thinking deeply. When He created me, He has known what will happen to me. Everything that I face is God's plan. So, when I've to lose mom, I think it is the time for God to proccess me more. He wants me looking deeply to His love and more to Himself as the One who will take of me. How great Jesus is! We have to proud having God like Him. The second thing that I realize, I still have a complete family. I have God as my Dad and my Mother, why should I worry?? Nothing. Jesus besides me :) Losing my mom doesn't mean that I lose my life. It just a start to go somewhere better. Just believe in Him. He will be never dissapointed us.

I think those are the reasons why I can keep smile. :D

Your ex is your friend or your enemy.

I think have many friends is a good idea, but how if you have to make a friend with your ex? Is it difficult? Or maybe, you haven't move on, have you? Sometimes, it is hard to be a friend with the one who had left you. But.. I think, you can't save the hatred inside your heart. I just conclude what should you do with your ex to be a friend or if it is possible, be a best friend.

1. Evaluation. What do I mean by evaluation? Maybe you think, you don't have any mistake that make the relationship broken. I reckon you think about it twice. We can't always blame our ex. We should look inside. Take some minutes to think how your relationship was. Did you do all perfect? Remember, nobody's perfect! Face your faults. Maybe you had faults that you never think about it before. 
2. Elimination. Forget what has happened. You can't stay in the past, your life is a long journey. Why are you busy of former? If you had mistake in your relationship, just let the mistake go. Take the thing that you can learn, but don't bring the mistake to your future. Let the garbage memories go off. You should create a new and memorable one in the future.
3. Now! Become friend! Forget about the past, and may your ex be your friends. I think it doesn't matter being friend with the ex. Your ex doesn't mean your enemy. Maybe, she/he is just a jumping stone for you to find someone better in the future. If you have forgive your ex and yourself, you will find a real peace and joy because grudge just makes you in a misery. 

I don't mind to teach you. I just want to share what I feel. It is better not to have an enemy. When I can see that I can be friend for my ex, I'm satisfied.

If God pleases

What do you want in your life?
I think I have summarized mine.
It will happen if God pleases :)

1. If God pleases I want to go to Paris and London. Having a holiday in those famous and fabulous countries.
   
   
   
2. If God pleases, I want take my master degree in Columbia University School of International and Public Affairs. I want to take International affair subject because this is what I want since high school.
   
   
   
3. If God pleases, I want to be a career woman who works in Embassy. Or, maybe I can be a writer, scriptwriter or a novelist such as JK Rowling and Stephen Mayer. Cool!
   
   
   
   
4. If God pleases, I want to be a dancer. In my busy activities, I still want to do my hobby: dancing. Dancing in Church, or if God pleases, I want to be a dancer for Hillsong concert, isn't it awesome? :) 
   
   
   
   
5. I also want to have fun. If God pleases, I want to watch One Direction's concert! Wow! How handsome they are :3
   
6. If God pleases, I want to have the SLR Camera and Galaxy notes this year (2014). If only God pleases.
   
   
   
   

I don't want force it will happen. I just let God work within me. I can have those things if only God wants it happening. I will work hard, but God decides :)

New Year 2014 : New Hope

Wow! Awesome! I've through 2013. I've never regretted 2013, but I'm so thankful of it. Even though 2013 is the hardest time (I think) because I've lost my best Mommy, I've got so many lessons in 2013. Thank God I can pass 2013 without crying or hopeless, and I am more thankful that I can enter 2014 with full of hope. I did not know what exactly will happen this new year, I just lay my life on God's feet. I know He will protect me as He did in 2013. 

In 2014, I have some wishes that I hope I can reach it in 2014. 

• I want to be a English novelist! I don't know why I can get this crazy thing, but I will do this. I will make an amazing novel. 
• I want my GPA 3.75! It means that I have to study hard! Ganbatte!
• I think I will join Youth service in Yogya, because in 2013, I hadn't join.
• Being a powerful dancer!
• Taking chinese lesson. 
• Start making a thesis!

Yeah! 6 points that I hope I can get, not by my strength, but God's. I will let Him work in my life. I don't want limit God's work. Be unto me according to Your word, God. Love you so much, Jesus! :*