Family is a God's Idea

I used to have a complete family, but it just happened until I was three years old. Then my mother and I moved to Tangerang and lived with my grandpa and grandma. As a child I didn't understand why it happened and I never asked my mom about my dad. I felt happy with all I have that time, even though never keeping in touch with my dad.

Now, I just live with my grandpa. My mother and grandma have gone first, their home in heaven have finished. I never know why this should happen. I am not angry, I realized I can't find the answer now. I lose father's figure since I was child, but it doesn't matter to me (I think). Thing that I've never thought to happen, I also have to lose mother's figure. 

I remembered that day. I slept at ICU room, waited for mom who suffered. Suddenly she could not breathe and the breath lost forever. As the only that I have, I never thought that I had to through my life without her. It was so sad. Blue and gloomy. 

No matter what happens, He loves so much! I cry sometimes if I miss her, but I never live in sorrow or sadness. Today, when I opened my IG, I found a picture, daily quote from Hillsong. It is written "Family is a God's Idea". It made me thinking deeply. When He created me, He has known what will happen to me. Everything that I face is God's plan. So, when I've to lose mom, I think it is the time for God to proccess me more. He wants me looking deeply to His love and more to Himself as the One who will take of me. How great Jesus is! We have to proud having God like Him. The second thing that I realize, I still have a complete family. I have God as my Dad and my Mother, why should I worry?? Nothing. Jesus besides me :) Losing my mom doesn't mean that I lose my life. It just a start to go somewhere better. Just believe in Him. He will be never dissapointed us.

I think those are the reasons why I can keep smile. :D